Round 3 DR

[amy]

Another week, another HoH I haven't really gotten the chance to get close to. So naturally I end up on the block again. It's not even like I don't try to have conversations with Mark but everytime I respond he takes like a day to respond back! 

I'd really rather not face Sarah. I think I could beat her but I'd rather not test it. I'll have to see if this Marvin-Porsche-David alliance is as strong as I want it to be. Is it just a pure sociability thing or are there other factors at play in these nominations? I don't know. 

Either way I think that I need to just keep doing my thing and I should be alright. If those 3 plus Louise and Jen stick by me than I should be alright. 

[boog]

daaaaamn amy. back at it again on the block

[amy]

Thanks friend

[amy]

For once I didn't suck at a challenge which is good. That puzzle is pretty easy though so I doubt my time will win it but ah well. At least I wasn't an embarrassment. Either way I can't be relying on vetoes to save me. We'll see how this POV shakes out and whether I need to fight more come eviction time.

[amy]

Well it's Go Time. It probably doesn't bode well for me that I can't really muster up the urgency to fight super hard to stay in. I don't know if it's because I'm still more burnt out from Twisted All-Stars than I thought or if it's just because I haven't really connected with anyone on this cast who I look forward to talking to but it has been a chore for me to engage on AIM this season and I never feel like it goes anywhere a lot of the time. I'd like to stay but I'll be OK with leaving as well if that's where the majority's head is at.

Is there more going on with this round than I no or suspect? Probably. I feel like there has to be at least some strategy in play at this point. If David and Porsche aren't actually on board with aligning with me tonight is when I find out. I suspected they may have a thing with Sarah so if I was right then I'm pretty much fucked most likely. Last time everybody was constantly telling me they were gonna keep me. This time there's nothing. So I'm not wildly optimistic that I'll be here for Round 4 but you never can tell.

At the end of the day, I'm just trying to be me. We'll see whether that will be enough to keep me hanging out here and if it isn't well then so it goes.

[Ika]

Good luck lov

[amy]

Well I think my goose may be cooked. I tried playing the UTR sweetheart but once again I think I may have gone too UTR for my own good and have waited too long to kick in the strategy. I'm frustrating poor Marvin to no end but if he's half as good as he thinks he is he'll pull through this game if I get evicted.  

If I can secure David, Porsche, Jen, and Louise I am OK. Will I? Questionable.

[amy]

Well guys even Louise is basically giving me the farewell speech. Circle the wagons and warm up the fat lady. Looks like this may be it, barring some kind of miracle. If David and Porsche tell me they have my back I'll change my tune but for right now it looks like they're hanging me out to dry.

I definitely think this could have gone differently if I had either been more active strategically or committed wholeheartedly socially. But I never felt comfortable with the BB strategy and my social game left a lot to be desired. I stalled pretty hard once it became clear I just wasn't really clicking with anyone this season and I've never been a social butterfly so that combined with me never really feeling like totally committing to working on everyone probably lead to my demise.

But we'll see how this turns out. Say what you will about me but nobody has ever called me a quitter.

[amy]

I think my situation was entirely avoidable if I had been a bit more engaged during this round and with a few people throughout the game which is unfortunate and entirely on me. If I get eliminated I definitely apologize to the hosts for falling short as a cast member and not putting my whole effort into this game the way I promised to and the way I usually play. If by some miracle I get all 5 votes or 4 votes plus Mark's tiebreaker, I will definitely make adjustments moving forward.

Either way it's a bit too late in the game now.

[amy]

I really need David and/or Jen to come online.